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am back to my old blog. yun na tlga. haha.:D

watched kingkong awhile ago with Luigi Esquivel. Free tickets.:D oh yeah.:D tas we went bowling. 109 siya, ako 69 ata. haha.:D

im still at eastwood while my mom’s in the office. Ayan. Eto nanaman ako. bored to tears sa eastwood. the ultimate gimmick place in the philippines. hay.

i know it sounds crappy to make a big deal out of it. pero sabi ba naman nea "happy 8th,"..eh 9th na kea.

Blog time. Haha.J

Two days, I was a refugee at my tita’s house. That’s because our bathroom at home was being fixed. There wasn’t any leakage of some sort, or broken pipes actually. My mom suddenly had the verge to turn the frigging bathroom blue for no apparent reason at all. And so, every one at home had to manage two days without a decent bathroom. Well, my mom considered MY without-a-bathroom dilemma and sent me to tita Rose’s house at Vermont Park. No cable tv. No internet. No telephone. A 2 whole days with a 54 year old old maid. Woopeee. (sarcasm…)

The great thing was that I was able to watch the pink toes recital sa SM Fairview nung Sunday. (technically yesterday, but since it’s past 12 midnyt of Tuesday, I’m going to state it as the day before. Whatever. Haha.J)

Awhile ago, since I was so tired of sitting around sa house ni tita rose doing things that bore me kea naman mom agreed that I meet up with my friends. Unang plano sa Pinoy big bro house kami magkikita kita. I know, it sounds really lame for a gimmick. Haha.:D Pero mara, Justine, cindy and gelo needed to shoot their Math project sa pinoy big bro house. Tas I was spared of the drama they experienced doon kasi mom picked me up sa bahay ni tita rose ng late. Tas yon, diretso nalan daw ako ng greenhills. Pero we still went by eastwood, took us about an hour to get rid of that. Tas yon, greenhills na. Tas I met up with Justine, angelo, reynald, dom and mara. Mara and dom are avid shoppers, tas the rest of us were either bored of shopping or wala ng pera,,kea we hung out nalang sa timezone. Yeah, ang saya mag time zone. Wala pa masyadong tao, sa nagmuka kaming tanga ni Justine at gelo, tas si reynald naka upo lan at tumatawa,,(wala kasi pera, hehe.:D) Tas 5pm came so fast.mara, Justine and gelo had to go home na. Gelo and Justine went home together tas hinatid pa namen ni reynald at dom si mara pauwi. We really didn’t have money anymore when we went back sa greenhills. Pero ayon, yaya pa rin ako manood ng cine. Yung The Fog. Ang hot tlga ni Mr. Smallville forever(tom welling). Hehe.:D Pero the story was really unbelievable. Hndi nakaktkot, nakakabigla lan.:P

Yon, tas time to go home na. I told mom na sa bahay ako tutulog ngayon, whether may banyo or wala. I can’t live one more day of my vacation without the perfect vacation necessities…like net, cable tv or the telephone. Haha.:D

nagka outreach sa pisay khapon. All 07 and 06 were assigned a child tas yon, I-entertain and stuff. Tas the li’l gal assigned to me was uber cute. She’s 7 years old and I felt really at ease with her in the 4 hours we were together. I suddenly felt how to be a sister. Haha.J

Paskhorus finals. Opal and Tau won. (though i wanted Dahlia or Jade to win, still, cheers to Mica of Opal. Ang galing mo mag solo pramis.J) Tas it was so surprising that pisay came up with a really unbelievable display of fireworks sa field nung natapos na yung competition. It was the first time pisay did fireworks display s campus mismo. Bongga. May joke nga eh, farewell gift na daw ni RRM. Haha joke.J

Tas yon. Kahit na the day seemed so perfectly serene, I still felt everything was incomplete. I could not help remember what the last day of classes before the Christmas break was for me last year. I could still feel how happy I was a year ago. Then there are problems that have lingered in me for so long, that I couldn’t help feel sorry for myself that night. I did not want the classes to end. School is where I find my comfort. There are things my parents cannot understand about me these days so I can’t find comfort at home. I didn’t want to be on vacation for more than 3 weeks. I feel so locked up at home from everything that makes me happy. My parents are not really the problem. I know I get a lot of sermons and stuff from them but I don’t hate them. I’m just now comfortable being with them. Wla atang makakatulong sakin. I don’t feel like celebrating Christmas at all. I don’t want to say na “Christmas naman, kalimutan nalang ang problema muna!”..kasi it would always be there, no matter how much I hide from it. Christmas. Cold. Malamig. Ayon, anlungkot ko tlga sa last day before xmas break ngayon.:( sorry sa mga nadramahan ko, at napakitaan ko ng kabangagan, like dom, arce, reynald..ryan, annapat..sorry..:P Don’t mind me. ung tipong sobrang tatawa ako, tas after a minute di ko na mapigilan umiyak tlga. I’m afraid am acting like a lunatic already, kea ayan, di na mauulit, hehe.:) Tas ayan, dagdag pa sila dom at reynald, two of my guy bestfriends na sobrang whatever kung magsabi ng “babay” sakin. Leche, natatakot na ako kung pano nga tlga kun magkatotoo na wla na isa man lan sa kanila after all these.:(..Hay, bangag ko tlga yeterday.

Anyhow.. stop the drama for a while muna today. I slept through a whole 14 hours last night, and I feel a lot better when I woke up. Kasi this time, I’m going to make the most of my free time. I’m going to sit in front of the TV or the computer the whole day, or if not, stay ni bed and sleep as long as I want. The perfect lifestyle for a perfect life. Haha.:P

I just realized, I have absolutely nothing to do this Christmas break other than completing tasks for school next year. My mom and me were supposed to go sa hongkong pero I doubt isasama pa nea ako. And I’m not really into hanging in a cold country where my mom’s the only one I know who speaks my language. I’m not in the mood for the shopping or the views either.:P

Basically..i want to be happier this xmas. And i could do that if i think positively right?..so why is it easier said than done?…

Yey.. kahit na sobrang corny..bsta yey. haha.:D labo.

tamad na. babay.

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Yeah, naka update. Pero it’s already 1am of December 7. I don’t know what’s wrong with friendster’s time.

happy gurang day to you today Reynald. Hahaha.:D

Haha, I just realized how erratic some things in my life are. An example of this are the number of blogs I keep on updating everyday. I’m actually updating 3 blogs for the matter, my xanga one, my old friendster blog and this one. I don’t keep a permanent blog. I don’t keep things permanent. Maybe there are about a number of things I keep permanent but those things I could only count with my 10 fingers, maybe even less. Argh,,,,I hafta get my life straight, I know…:P

Okay..those things are pointless really., am really fishing you all to visit those blogs. http://xanga.com/anjoleen and http://anjoleen.blogs.friendster.com/the_life …haha.:P

So the last day of perio is today. Later, about 7 hours from now. The second day of perio was a total chaos for me. Considering that when ma’m bawagan announced that 15 minutes was left for the math exam while I was still in number 14 (the test had 42 questions), made matters worse. And that’s why I wasn’t able to concentrate on my bio exam right after. I was too preoccupied in contemplating how badly I had done in Math. Argh..well, good thing I passed all my long tests..i hope it saves me to at least 2.5. I’m really crossing my fingers to it.

Yeah, later mara’s gonna treat us to free ice skating sa Sm megamol, after the exams. Tas Reynald said he’s gonna treat bowling naman. Ayos, free gimmick later, gastos lan is food. Haha:D

Yeah,! tapos na ang perio sa chem. at English. No doubt, am suprah thankful that I’ll be given about 3 weeks to relax at home and not think about my chem. Grade for all I care. I’m definitely sure I’m getting a failing mark for the perio. And that sucks, since I desperately NEED a passing mark. Tomorrow’s Math and bio test. I also need to pass bio, since I know I got a really…doomed…score in the first long exam. So what am I still doing, typing away in this blog?.. haha.J

Aww..i forgot to mention in my xanga blog( http://xanga.com/anjoleen ) another high light of last week. Friday, in the universal break, I was part of the “Angelo-Ostrea-is-a-man” parade in the grandstand. My task was to get Mara from the library, and lead her to the grandstand. Well for what? Haha.J okay, for weeks, we have been persuading Angelo to ask mara to the prom. I know they’ll really click together, since they have been classmates for three straight years already. And I also know that somehow, angelo…L—S mara. (hehe.J) So, for about 3 weeks, angelo had a plan already, which mara may have already guessed, pero di siya sure kung pano ba tlga siya I-a-ask. I got really excited for my part, since Mara’s my bestfriend and I love angelo to pieces.J Pero sabi ni Gelo, friendly date lang ang gusto nea from mara. Yeah, kiss my ass. Haha J

            The day came, and I was pretty surprised with what Gelo came up with. Of course, he couldn’t have done it without the help of all his friends, specially from Potassium 07. They helped make the “Will you be my promdate” banner really cute, colorful and really enchanting. So, I went up to the library, where mara and Justine were. I thought of the craziest idea to get Mara out of the library, where she was busy doing her STR project proposal. Hell, enough about STR proposal, there’s a PROM PROPOSAL waiting for her sa grandstand, haha.J I told her I needed someone to talk to because of this problem I had. When I convinced her to go out of the library, Justine waited for us. (he wasn’t filled in with what was really happening.) then mara wanted to brush her teeth, and that’s when I had my crazy idea. I told her I also wanted to brush my teeth, and my toothbrush was at the grandstand. She was like, “Bakit nasa grandstand ang toothbrush mo?” and the first thing that came to me was “Ahm, pinadala ko yung bag ko kay dom sa grandstand.” Justine noticed my motive. He told me what a lousy actress I was, at sobrang obvious na ng gusto kong gwin. HahaJ And to make matters worse, Cy tamura came bounding up to us when we were on our way to the grandstand, shouting “Anj! Anong meron? Wow, gusto ko din manood! Sama ako!”.. and I had to shut him up for about 10 seconds.

            Then, before I knew what was coming, there were so many people sa grandstand. Astig tlga nung biglang angelo got mara’s hand, tas dun sila sa platform ng grandstand, silang dlawa lan, while everyone were watching sa steps. Everyone was really involved.J Tas Angelo started singing “it might be you” which is one of mara’s favorite songs, guitar as props(take note, kinapa lan nea ang chords ng kanta). And I started to hold back tears of “aww” that lurked in my eyes.J Tas when angelo’s song came to the part of “Maybe it’s you, all of my life…” Yung mga tao sa taas, like Jackie, Ivy Ventura, redge, and blabla, binaba na yung sobrang cute na banner na “will you be my promdate?”..wow, ang kulay nea sobra, considering na crammed lan tlga siya. Tas reaction ni mara?… “TAE! Sino gumawa niyan?!!!”..haha. Tae daw. Tas luigi esquivel came down from beside Jackie ata, and gave the flowers(malaking bouquet, tatlong maliit na pink flowers)  and Australian cadburry milk(mara’s fave) to gelo, who gave it to ,mara, sabay tanong “Will you be my promdate?”..tas yon, kilig kilig na ang lahat. (except for one, whom,, I have an idea wanted mara as promdate too. Pero ewan. Na give way na ata.) Tas naiyak na tlga ako…haha, am so pathetic, I know.:Þ Xempre ba nman, am sooo happy for mara, my bestfriend, and also for gelo, who’s one of my really closest friends. Tas everyone wanted to hear mara’s answer right then and there, kea yon..after a few minutes of kaartehan, and the like(hehe), mara whispered the magic word. “Yes.” Wiheee.J haha.J Galeng mo gelo.J Pero hay nako, like I said, kiss my ass, at oo nalan ako, kung sasabihin ni gelo na “friendly date” lan ang gusto nea from mara. Someone who wants only a “friendly date” wouldn’t go to that much trouble just for a prom proposal, diba? Haha.J

Andami na kea meh promdate. Excited na ata ang lhat for the prom, even 06 people come up with prom proposals similar to what gelo did. Tas egg has this prom dates lists na, and me and reynald are in the 20+ na ata sa list na yon. Haha, ang galeng, andami na tlga.J Almost all my friends have promdates na din eh. Bsta masaya ako, kasi yung mga friends ko, kami kami din yung most likely mga magkaka-dates, so I’ll be hanging out with my friends all night sa prom diba? Yeay.J

haha, more than two months pa ang prom, and I can’t believe I’m getting all worked up about it already. Kea ruddy hell, I’ll shut up about it till krisha gets a date already. YEAP. KRISHA KERR, available pa. Kea wag na mag atubili ang ISA JAN, wag na palagpasin ang pagkakataon, obvious naman na IKAW ang inaantay nea, kea pde ba, ASK KRISHA KERR already. Bago pa mag jan. 13. kasi jan 13 ang deadline,sbi ni egg! Haha.JJ (I love you krisha, hehe.J)

Ayon. So now, tis almost 10pm. DO I have to finish studying bio? I consider this an intermission. Bin studying for 2 hours already kasi eh. HahaJ sana maka update din ako bukas, hehe. tata for now.J

Saturday classes again. December 3.. As December 5 approaches, my feeling of panic and dread increases. I feel no better than how I felt when 2^nd quarter periodic exam was approaching. This time around, I need to rush through my chem., physics, bio, comp sci and soc sci lessons. I barely know the topics for the subjects I named. Waaah, what is wrong with me??:P I’m not even close to fulfilling my original plan for the schoolyear..to improve my grades per quarter. It seems like I’ll have to settle for a lower average again this quarter. Acads used to be my pride and joy. It’s funny how 3 years have gone since that feeling was in me. Now, I loathe academics. I hate it. It has destroyed my happiness. It makes me cry, it makes me bang my head on my table, it makes me barf, it makes me scream to a million fits… sigh…. :P..

Okay. Exag na. Haha.:P

Actually, studying really isn’t that bad as I explained in the previous paragraph. Yes, it can have its really frustrating times but seriously, I’m really thankful to be studying in pisay. No tuition, monthly 1.5k. Ayos diba? Hehe.:) But since I’m a really paranoid person, I tend to exaggerate on things. I’m afraid that I’m not going to be able to maintain the scholarship. Or if I did, I wouldn’t be able to get the grade I need in higschool to get into UP diliman in college. Hay. Pointless ranting if I don’t do anything about it, right?…

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haha…funny. I’m watching Panday right about now. (I’m not proud about that, believe me, hehe.) And there’s a character named “Lolo Aloy”..haha.. It made me remember kuya gino alo, and how old he is by now. (nagsalita ang bata, haha.)

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hay, so bored. and I miss that person so much. damn i miss that person.

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Beware. If you want to get a good night’s sleep, don’t ever dare watch Exorcism of Emily Rose at night, alone in the cinema. Yeap, that’s what I got stuck to do. In the middle of Eastwood Cinemas, all alone, with no one to scream at, or hold, or to comfort me..i sat, staring wide eyed on the big screen, my fingers titled wounded on my ears (occasionally typing away on my cellphone)…yes, I was again alone in the movie house, watching this time a horror movie. Well, luckily enough (is it really?), I was sitting beside a guy I recognized as a batch 2004 person, who may not know I ever exist in the world. Yes, made me feel a li’l better seeing someone I know by name.

First, it scared me that I had a lot in common with Emily Rose. My dad was the one who pointed out those facts.(he knew about them since he watched the movie last Wednesday with his officemates. ) What a dad. Scaring the hell out of his only daughter. Haha.:P

First thing in common with Emily, is that she’s a boarding student, I’m also a dormer in pisay, and the pisay dorm is a lot scarier than what was shown in the movie. There are also times I stay alone in the dorm when both my roommates go home Friday night, and I’m stuck till Saturday night. Yeap, I think I can never ever stay in the dorm alone…as in ever again. And seeing that our window’s view is this really tall and shaggy tree which I horribly often mistake to be sleepy hollow, casper, or any of that sort, makes me quiver at the thought of actually staying there alone. Second thing in common with her is that I’m a scholar in pisay, and she’s granted a scholarship for college. Freaky enough, there was a scene that also showed her playing the piano with all emotion. That’s the third thing in common. I love playing the piano. And my dad tried to make me laugh when he saw the panic and dread in my eyes. He told me that the fourth thing I had in common with Emily is that I had the same long chin as she had. Haha. Funny dad, really funny.

Okay, I’m being my totally paranoid self again. I know. Pardon me please.

But the movie really disturbed me a lot. (Thanks dad, haha.:P) It’s almost 1am. 3am in 2 hours. The devil-witching hour as described in the movie. Yikes. Hehe.:P I don’t want to continue writing about it so as not to scare myself more than how scared I am now.

kung ikaw ay masaya pumalakpak ka…
.."ayoko nga..!"
kung ikaw ay masaya pumalakpak ka.
…"ayoko nga sabi eh.."
kung ikaw ay masaya buhay mo ay sisigla, kung ikaw ay masaya pumalakpak ka!
…."buzz off.."

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I’ve been keeping a total of 4 blogs already. the http://xanga.com/anjoleen which i use most frequently, the http://livejournal.com/users/anj09aq which i left before summer ended, the one in my second friendster account and this. Still, go to the http://xanga.com/anjoleen . I just don’t feel like altering with the xanga blog for long, and i just wanted to make it an entertainment blog from now on.

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Everyday, i kept everything i feel inside hidden within me. I feel sort of empty, but i can’t explain what’s really bothering me. It’s as if nothing could ever make me feel fully happy again when this school year started. I even thought that i could survive my school works without much of a fraction of a minute being distracted by any thoughts that swirled in my head. But yeap, i thought wrong. Third quarter is almost done, and i haven’t found anything worthwhile about third year yet. I find there’s still nothing to be proud of passing through 3rd year. The first time i failed two subjects in 2 consecutive quarters makes it even worse. But then, when i think about it, academics isn’t really my problem at all. Hay..i can’t wait till this school year’s over and done. I just hope, something worthwhile to my being would happen in the 4th quarter. I’d love that everything would fall to where they’re supposed to be, before this schoolyear ends.

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